I must admit I’m a hopeless romantic person. And I also do believe in fairy tales and happy endings. But until now, I’m still wondering…

Can a person really love someone unconditionally?

Can we really give so much without wanting something in return?

Can unrequited love be so unconditional even if you have sworn for so many times that you will forget that person?

Is it really love or just a plain state of mind?

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He gives you attention you never really receive from someone else.

He gives you time you never really get from someone else.

He understands you whenever you’re feeling down and alone even for the smallest reason.

He listens to your story and cares even for the smallest detail of your so called life.

Maybe I just misunderstood all those things… Maybe it’s what the other part of me wanted.

“Kung lahat ng bagay na ginagawa niya binibigyan mo ng kahulugan, konti na lang DIKSYUNARYO ka na..- Anynomous”

It’s been 2 years now since I realized that I’ve fallen in love with someone I shouldn’t have. And yet I’m still clinging to that person even though it’s not really the logical thing to do.

Someone told me that if I don’t tell him, how would he know? I just couldn’t bear to lose something precious – the friendship I’ve been treasuring for all these years?

Yes, I yearned that someday he would see through me that he’ll realize that I’ve loved him for a long time. And yes, I told myself so many times that I’ll forget him but until now i’ve been failing to do so..

Is it because there’s something wrong with my head, that I can’t find the courage to leave?

Is this really love? Or just plain stupidity?

Until now, I’m still wondering.. Why can’t I stop myself to fall in love with him all over again?

I need to get out of this emotional forest.